My dearest

I am so sorry about how things turned out for us.

I'm sorry that we no longer speak to each other.

I'm sorry that it was something so stupid as you entering my Facebook account and arriving to conclusions that teared us apart.

And I am sorry if I didn't realise that you were in pain because of us not being together anymore.

I want you to know that I miss you. I always will. I'll always miss you because one can't live the same story twice. And ours is one I'll always treasure. You are my first true love and the memory of you, the memory of us, will stay forever in my head and my heart.

I miss the way you looked at me and how special it made me feel. I miss the way you made me feel about myself, I miss the confidence and the power your love gave me. I miss the laughs and the shared tears. I miss your kisses on my forehead. I miss the way you cared for me so much. I miss the feel of your skin. I miss your face smiling because of me. I miss the way you embraced me in your arms, I miss your smell. I miss sleeping next to you, feeling your heartbeat...

It hurts me that you think I've already forgotten you. It hurts me that you ever thought I could forget you. But most of all, it hurts me that you doubt of my love. And you don't know how painful that is because the truth is I loved you till the end of our relationship, I love you now and I will always love you. Love changes, love develops into some strange forms, but it doesn't just go away. I hope you knew that as much as I hope you read these words someday.

Your love changed me in more than one way and taught me infinite things. I want to thank you for that. I want to thank you for helping me to be a better person and to help me know myself better. Discover myself and embrace my findings. You helped me to accept mysefl, to do the most with what I have and can offer. I wanted to be a better person and you inspired that in me. I wanted to be the best person I could to you, and not because you'd asked for it but because that's what I thought you deserved. I think I gave you the best version of myself I could, even though sometimes I'm sure it looked like the worst one.

Our love was not perfect but it was real and it was deep.

I hate being the cause of your pain because all I ever wanted was to make you happy. I wish you could forgive me for that.

You are an incredible man, I hope you know that. It is a privilege to love you and I'm glad I had it and that it was mutual. I'm glad that I met you and there wasn't a day I didn't thank God for that. Still today I do.

In case you think otherwise, I want to tell you that only the good memories are the ones which will stick to my memory; the bad times, I will forget,

Thank you for this amazing journey together, Thank you for being my loyal partner for two years.

I hope fate, if not our will, will bring us together again someday. We'd be good ol' friends. We'd remember our moments together.

I hope we can be happy again as we were during most of our journey; passionate about life and love.

I hope you are doing well and once again, THANK YOU. I hope I was as good to you as you were to me.

I will always remember you and a part of me will remain with you forever.